July 20, 2017

chattels

three things escort a man up until the journey transits into another chapter;
beginning from the moment he breathes his first breath,
the demoting journey of his burial
and the journey to the hereafter.

what follows until the very last breath, is his belongings in the world.
then what follows until he sits in the grave is the family
and what follow until hereafter are his deeds.

(Mukashafah al-Qulub, Imam al-Ghazali)

June 18, 2017

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May 29, 2017

of gays, tudung and Islam

it seems like more and more people are coming to join the bandwagon of this legitamise things that are not suppose to be. in other words, making haram things halal. first with the aurat covering issue and then it extends to being gay, homosexual while being a practicing muslim. i mean, one of the basic principles of being a muslim is to stay a far and leave the things that He had clearly ruled and do our obligations and what are being told by Him.

i think it is quite easy to brain; you are practically disobeying Him if you are not following the commandments, which means, you are practically not a good follower. of course, it is okay to sin. people sin differently and it is up to Him and only Him to judge the sinner but to say such huge obligations and responsibilities as if it is nothing and viewing it like some sort of miniature is definitely dumb from my pov. such matters are already clearly being ruled down in the Quran. Quran told those things are monolithic negligence and if one to continue to do so, the answers are already been told; you are making a beeline to hell.

people should really stop twisting the words of the Quran for their own gain. to get away from the sins, simply bring up some verses from the Holy Book and simply jump to conclusions, come up with their own verdict, come up with their own version of the tafsir. they made it look so simple, as if studying the Quran is as easy as studying your books on the shelves, as easy as studying the magazines on the tables! really, even the scholars find it hard to interpret the words of Allah. even the Fatihah itself as said by the scholars hasn't yet been tafsir fully by mankind. i paraphrase what Nouman Ali Khan said, "the tafsir of the Fatihah is the rest of the book. you see, it not really easy to interpret the Quran as the book uses another level of Arabic and you have got to master the high level Arabic to be eligible to be a tafsir.

and another thing to mention, studying the knowledge of the faith, requires a teacher. it requires face to face learning sessions so that you will be less likely to be misguided as the prophet told. you are to have Satan as your teacher if to study the knowledge on your own. and also, have as many teachers as you can in doing so. then you will minimise the possibility of derailing from the correct meanings and interpretations. and your teachers should be acknowledge by other certified and reliable scholars and ustadhs. those things are the basic rules and adab of studying the knowledge of the faith and those rules are not made by people like us, those are the teaching of the Prophet (PBUH).

as much as we all love liberation, we should never forget that we are all, only servants of Allah SWT. the word servant itself pretty much explains, we are by all means, are limited. we can go as far but to never cross the limits and boundaries. astronauts can go only as high as they could go without the suits and gears.

to question the rulings of Allah is okay, encouraged even by Him. Allah never really 'mad' when Iblis questioned Him on why is it they have to bow to Adam A.S. we need to be curious, question things, so that we know, so that we don't be any of those followers who blindly follow the teachings of Islam. but again, to question things, should have the proper way of doing it. try listen to what Nouman Ali Khan said in his lecture 'Ask with Humility'. he stated some guides on how to questions Allah's ruling in order for us to better comprehend the reasons He did so.

really, i have no problems at all with the LGBT community and those who still have problems of covering the aurat as guided by the Book. to me, they are still in the dark and don't really understand on some things. but to me it seems rude and a little bit too much to simply twist the word of Allah and come up with their own version of the teachings and understanding. we all should know better. anyhow, we should not simply be making haram things halal.

Allah knows best.

March 30, 2017

out of control

one of the possible reasons of why people are in stress, or relatively depressed and in agony would be the inability to acquire what they have been wanting. by means, things are not going as they had planned. say you want people to love you, adore you as much as they could, but it went totally the opposite, doubtless, contrary in scad. now that hurts ineptly, i know.

but come to think of it, it is normal if things are not going as what we had planned and it is absolutely okay to messed up sometimes. because in life, we should never expect things to go as we had planned all the time. let we planned all utterly perfect even, consider all possible worst case scenarios, our covets could still come to a failure, busted. expectations are truly dangerous. qadr, the predestination of measurements and sustenance of everything and everyone, according to His knowledge and wisdom is obviously not ours. one might say, good things always happen to bad people and bad things (or what we think are bad) happens to good people. we are not capable (knowledge wise) to decide good or bad over these things. qadr is not for us. it is not our job even. we are not as wise as He is the Wisest of all. doesn't matter how much power and authority you have, you don't and will not have the ultimate power over some things.

there are actually things we cannot control, there are things in life that are beyond us. there is a power beyond our power. we all do not possess and will never have the ultimate power and that, is actually a divine mercy from Him. if to choose a spouse is already difficult and arduous, imagine having to decide which country you would be born in. imagine, having to decide who is your mother, who is your father. imagine, having to decide the day your most loved would depart. that is truly beyond our power and knowledge. who could possibly know when is it the right moment? such these critical decisions are meant to be out of our hands, out of our capabilities since we are from square one are limited. again, there are power beyond our power.

He truly had made it easy for us. Much mercy from Him had anticipate us from having to decide the critical decisions that we our self do not know if it is the best for us. bottom line, the moment we understand and realise that there are things that we cannot control, the happier we become and will later be able to taste the gist of happiness. certainly, able to find that joy we be after. have your utmost faith on Him as He is after all, the Wisest of all. care less, smile more ;)

January 30, 2017

*title*

i see faces wrapped with much felicity,
i know, there should be much joy beforehand.
i see faces cloaked with misery,
i know, probably quandaries paid her a visit.
i see faces portrayed curiosity,
i know, at least he cares and the thing matters.
i see faces manisfest insecurities,
worrying for what she do not possess.


but really,
do i really know what is it i suppose to see?
irrigate me.

January 07, 2017

confinement

the irony of those who care so much and want to know the most about others is that they themselves are ultimately concealed and discreet about themselves. to share their thoughts and beliefs, their problems and dilemmas is totally on the other side of the coin. they are the black-hole near the Gargantua.

what is actually the reason behind mass majority of us being absolutely private with one another? one could be extremely private to not let themself be seen as vulnerable and critical to others. for the lack of better words, ego might be governing the thoughts of them. as if, to express their problems and dilemmas, would put them into a spot where they are weak and incapable of handling things themselves. mighty they may not be and anemic should they become if they do so.

perhaps another acumen to the topic is lacking the assurance towards others. assurances to have the considerations from the others once theirs are given. i mean, people open up to have some counselings and consultations to the disputes they are currently facing. simply opening up to everyone would again be risky as mentioned earlier, causing them to expose their vulnerability, weaknesses out in the wild. bottom line, people tend to not disclose themselves to others as they ought to feel that someone would not be beneficiary and would never be able to confer them for some answers. hence, the case here is lack of trust.

you see, confronting your problems by yourself usually results in you being tangled further into your problems. say you are in a maze, looking for the exit route. you can find the way out by your own for sure by using the trial and error method for example but oh boy it is very time consuming. imagine having an eagle eye from up above. you will find your way out in no time. we should look things in different perspectives. as many as we can for the better results. how is it possible for a failed methodology to be lucrative to the same exact complication? using the same exact failed method over and over again and hoping for a fruitful outcome is somehow stupid. imo, to do a mistake is okay. but to purposely repeat the learned mistake over and over again is fairly stupid. have yourself as much eagles as possible. the wider the perspective, the better the outcome and the aftermath.

but coming down from the mentioned assumed reason of why people disclose themselves, opening up should always be towards someone who is very much trustworthy. have with yourself one loyal confidant. opening up to everyone is rash. not everyone is able to confine your vulnerability. not everyone would promise to not use your liability against you. and not everyone would keep their words. ergo, you should know for yourself who should you trust.

i may not have the facts to rest my thoughts onto so take only what you think it's right. cheers!

December 16, 2016

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kadang angin ribut
nan kencang yang amat
setaraf hantaran musibah daripada Allah
tidak terasa oleh aku walaupun si jasad
ada membatu di situ

kadang itu
mereka yang hijau mampu terus megah menghijau
biarpun hujan tiada menyinggah
matahari tiada menjengah
merembes cahaya jingga
meski sekurun atau beribu tahun hayatnya

ada masanya itu
pelangi dipasang indah buat sehari
kuntuman bunga tidaklah menguncup
malah mendabik mekarnya luas
segala yang wangi itu dilepaskan
segala yang busuk itu terlenyapkan

maha besarnya Allah
menjadikan yang ghaib itu lebih terkesan daripada yang nyata
maha suci Allah
telah menciptakan yang ghaib itu indah